A Clean, Well-Lighted Place Songtext

Its not all just black and white anymore, there's that ugly shade of grey. Sometimes I wish I didn't have a heart and a soul, because there's no risk in not hurting at all. Maybe then my eyes wouldn't grow so old. I think its just my nature to realize the evil in everything and everyone. I envy those who sing a song much more sincere than mine. No one will ever give a shit about a kid with fear in his heart and hope in his eyes. I guess that's how it is, life isn't a fairy tail, and if it were, I'd fuck it up. I'm running backwards in a race I cannot win. I lost my conscience long ago. I'm in this shit for myself. Ive found that a life worth living is one where everyone else is content, and you're fucking miserable. So take your best shot and then fail because from the start you're not good enough