No Way Out Songtext

this is the one thing i told myself that i'd never do. and i've trying, dying, to fucking evacuate these decisions but they always end up wrong. you can only avoid your problems for so long because one day it catches up to you. and it doesn't seem fair that this rests in my hands. i never had a fucking chance and i've never been put in such a situation where my back is up against the wall. sometimes i feel i'm not the person they want me to be. and i wonder what you would do if you were in my shoes. i feel like i'm betraying myself while i disappoint and let the others down. can't you understand i'm living my life within your hate. this made a war inside my head, i can't escape. life means death and death ends strife. i'm tough as hell but i'm losing the fight. fuck this world, i can't win. there's no turning back from where i came in. there's no easy way out. wish i didn't care about all these things inside my head. makes me wish that i was fucking dead.