S & M Songtext

When I thought my life was a game
I was so much happier then
Never had to play pretend
Now, I’m older and much wiser
Tougher shell but not a fighter
Aching to let out the demon
The nightmare I keep dreamin’

But I mеt you and it felt okay
To tell you when I'm in pain
Talking ‘bout thе could-have-been's
The how’s, the why’s, the where’s, and when’s
I felt so safe and warm with you
But underneath the surface, darkness grew
‘Cause this situation’s fucked up (Ah, ah-ah)
In other’s, again I’ll never trust

Take a breath in, let it out
It’s gonna be okay
They probably didn’t notice Or you were in their way
But something just seems off
It’s like they can’t see that I’m here
Maybe I’m the monster
I’m the shadow lurking near

I’m well aware of all I do
'Ware of all the hearts I touch
But the opposite is far from true
And it will never be enough
Don’t treat me like I’m ‘bout to shatter (To shatter)
Or tell me that I’m all that matters (That matters)
Your lives are worth more than mine
In me, darkness resides (Only)

I never pester, never bother
No, I never lie (I never lie)
I’ll always attempt at happiness
And when I fail, I’ll always cry (I always cry)
I know I’m not alone
I have a home away from home
Where I can sleep and embrace my demons
And never be alone (Oh-oh-oh-oh)

Take a breath in and out
But you’ll never be okay
Forget them, unremember them
They’ll just get in our way (In your way)
It’s time for them to notice you
And realize you’re here
You’ve made me the shadow (Make them pay)
I’m the monster you all fear

Take a breath in, let it out
You’re gonna be okay
You finally have an audience
And you can make them pay (You can make them pay)