.depleting Hearts (before And After Sex). Songtext

We were once so clear
But you shattered the glass between us
With all the of the false identities
But I'm still here, leased

Your legs are up
Pressed against all of there skin
In my drowning nightmare
That seems to be winning
Your last resort
Are shovels of snow
Im sitting here
Scared to step outside
Into the nova
That surrounds us both

You kiss me like its everything
You fuck him though its nothing

He pushes in Saying that he really loves you
Thats how pins puncture
And scar my eyes
Tears have forever
In printed capsules on my cheeks
As I stand here an wait
For you to realize that
I glide my hand
Over paper
Wishing it was perfection
But its all surreal
Just like your and my reflection.

The blood rushes
From all over
I bathe myself in its salty bliss
This heart attack through away the key
That locked, you and me.

Its been three weeks
Since you made me cry
Its been three weeks
Since i wanted to die
But your back again
Screaming all at me
But your back again
And im wishing to end